I apologize for taking so long, dear readers.
Last month as I lay dying,
The edges of my vision, slowly narrowing,
the final thought in my mind was:
I'm at peace, and I'm not afraid,
For there is sweetness in death, but
I don't want to die now.
And cue blackout, and loss of consciousness.
It is bright, all around me, blazing, pure white light.
I am standing in whiteness, and there are no shadows to be found.
The light was intense, but not blinding, warm, but not scorching
Yet brighter than any ray shone forth by the sun.
And I, my clothes, were in the purest white.
Then He spoke to me, in a voice deep and strong,
Not like Morgan Freeman's,
yet a thousand times more commanding than any voice I have ever heard
This Voice had power and authority, and He spoke to me
Not just as a Father to a son, but also as a Commander in Chief to a private.
And He said,
"Now is not your time. Serve me, and live!"
And I lived. I woke up in the Emergency Room, with tears in my eyes,
and the vital signs that were falling rapidly the whole time I was out,
Rapidly shot up into the stable regions within the next few hours.
The docs and nurses were baffled, and when nothing could explain how I did not die
(They told my mom that night to expect a funeral the next morning, if I'm not dead by then)
They took blood samples, and discharged me when they couldn't keep me there any longer.
I was in there for five days. And I lived to tell the tale.
Alright, Lord, said I-
Enough signs. I surrender. You Win.
Now show me what to do next.
And in my gut I felt~ Contact your church leaders. I have sent you.
And so over the next few days I met in short order:
Tuesday: Pastor Mark of Serving in Missions
Wednesday: Reverend Timothy of KLBC (Assoc. Pastor)
Thursday: Reverend John of KLBC (Senior Pastor)
It seems it's not His will for me to enter Seminary next year,
but instead I must grow more and pass through 15 months of church internship first
Last Sunday, D.- the church staff, passed me an internship form
After much praying and deliberation, waiting and hoping
(If this is Your doing, Lord, You get me through this!)
He gave me His thumbs up the day before yesterday.
The church's board members approved my internship application
Which in itself was a close shave, since I left my internship form at home,
I rushed with Pas. Tim. to the office to fill another up before the board meeting.
Which starts in about 15 minutes time.
I was desperate. I didn't have my 2 referrals,
I didn't have the time to compose a nice long essay
(Usually when I have time to write one, I tend to exceed 500 words)
So that may have worked out in my favor.
I think I only got till 200-250, handwritten words from my heart.
No fancy language, no flowery ornaments.
Just the earnest, simple statement why I am applying for internship.
At 10:20pm thereabouts. I got the news. The pastors texted me.
Bad news, says Pas. Tim., your holidays ends on the 15th.
Congratulations, says Pas. John, the board has approved...
I needn't read on. I got it. God opened the doors for me yet again.
The next morning, I dropped by the office to finalize it.
Hallelujah, I'm one step nearer.
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